New Chapter..hard lessons learned

After everything is said and done. I am still here, making it and being blessed all at the same time. What I have learned is that I have have HAVE to do for MYSELF from now on... Doing for others, having them use me financially wise is what put me in a messed up situation that tops everything else. SO this is now a new chapter in my life. A re-do/start over. I am excited about my move this upcoming weekend. I am ready to do me 10,000,000% with no distractions. I know who are true to me, real friends and its not many which I am very happy about.

I am continuing to be determined, devoted and motivated on being successful for ME. Dispute everything that has gone down the past 2wks or so, I am STILL applying to scholarships as I was informed that I have exhausted all my financial aid. A bunch of BS right. Thought that it was no limit of educational loans AKA Staford sub and unsub. However, its government owned so you know how that goes.

Work is still work. Glad to have a job for real.  
The relationship is well what it is. I'm just into me, myself and I right now... Not selfish per se but hey its just the right thing to do. So many ppl consumed my life that I had no where to breathe and the sad thing is that they care less to be honest. And yes I did it to myself I admit it but there is a time for all to stop halt. And this is it!

Other than that, I'm just looking forward to everything and not dwell on the past. As from someone who has been through a lot, I'll say this to my readers.... please please please don't allow others to take advantage of you or you being soooo nice to others where you end up with NOTHING or worse yet, LOOSING NOTHING.

A lot of things

So a lot of things has been going on. First I finally set up an apt with Phoenix for this upcoming week. Unfortanitely, in order to get my transcripts from Strayer I have to come out of pocket for past semester...get this summer and fall 2009. And it took me calling to get my official transcripts for them to inform that I have an outstanding balance from a promisary note that I assumed I paid up. No letter was mailed, calls, emails, nada. Truly BAD and unprofessional service. Therefore, I have lost all respect for Strayer. I would not recommend anyone there, unless you are able to pay the entire total of tuition upfront in CASH.

Next, the job thing is not getting better. A lot of changes are coming down that are and will effect all of us. Especially financially. *sigh* will it even get better as we fight to show that we are great dedicated workers, etc. I pray it gets better for real.

My life, well I am working on getting that together and back on track finally. They say you have to start within and thus far I am doing better per doctor...but I know that STRESS is the killer and I fight with it daily from finances to relationship wise. I just feel that I'm just not understandable when it comes to certain situations or issues. As like only I understand myself and no one else does.

Moving along, I feel like I am on another level regarding my hair business. I started vamping up my website/portfolio and even blogging on here (my other blog attached to my profile) as well as my journal on my website. I'm just out here voicing myself and helping others in the meantime. Or shall I say I sure hope I do.

The jewelry that I do...well no takers/buyers, which I guess will take time right. But I have started rocking them myself as I do like my own work. Same for the makeup, I purchase a bit of things for myself as well. As they say, in time it will happen right. So I'm ready to sit back and see.

Anyhow, thats really the rundown of whats been going on since the last post. Until next time be you always.    :0)